My husband was supposed to come back today. Instead his tour got extended. He’s out there fighting for our freedom and the freedom of everyone else all over the globe.
Sometimes I wonder what it really means to be “FREE”. How can anyone ever really be free if there’s always such a high cost to pay for it. How can anyone really be free when people must sacrafice their lives for it. Were those soldiers who died free? How can we really be free when it means our privacy is invaded and our civil rights are violated. How are we preserving freedom by taking it away?
Such is the paradox of our world since the attacks of 9/11. Nothing has ever really been right since. I guess in a sense the terrorists did win that day. Everything has changed for the worse. Our economy and the gloabl economy are on life support. It just doesn’t seem to be able to improve.
Soldiers have been dying ever since that fateful day. A lot more people have died after the fact than during the initial events. And more continue to die every day. And I’ll be damned if anyone really has a good reason why.
Here we’ve been told all these years that we’re winning the war on terror. But it seems our enemies have been successful all along.
The only way to truly be free is to stop fighting.
If it’s ugly I’m all for it. Life is ugly and that’s beautiful. Or so I’ve been told my whole life regardless of its veractiy. Perception is as perception does. Rainbows in the dark and all that petty jargon. Corporate moguls and crusaders against injustice are the same really. They want control. They want wealth. Control is wealth. Wealth is control. If this were an episode of Star Trek the holodeck would stop working now and a tear in the space time continuum would swallow us all up. We’d be a nice snack for infinity and then some wormhole would shit us out into the next little universe of tiny strings and try to fit us into one of its quantum knots. And it would succeed. Because we are so very small. And constantly shrinking.
We won’t disappear though. We’ll just keep getting smaler. There is no end to how small a thing can be.
Just when you think it can’t shrink any further someone comes along with some device to prove that there are indeed tinier pieces. And if those tiny pieces can be that small, then surely anything can be.
That’s life or that’s life now. Not that it really matters what life used to be. You can’t go back. You can sprint and run ahead. The future is there to be stolen. But you can’t slow down enough to go backward. Not in this current configuration. And this is the only architecture available to us. Run or walk or crawl. Your choice. Doesn’t matter. You’re there. Suffocating with the rest of them. Feasting on disease and selling your destiny to the highest bidder.
I for one am not puzzled by nor concerned for why Americans are so fat. Because I know why it is so. Because we are better and bigger is better. Haven’t you heard. I’ve been to England and Canada and they’re fat too. Just not as fat as us. Because we’re better.
I’ve been to France and they’re not fat at all. No wonder they surrendered so quickly during world war II. That’s why the Japanese lost too. Just too damn skinny and short those little fuckers are. The Germans and the Russian, now those people know how to pack on the pounds need be.
We’re a christian nation. In the bible there’s a clear directive from God to be fruitful and multiply. Damn if that ain’t exactly what we’re doing.
Some folks labor their whole live under the delusion that America is a free nation that was founded on the notion of liberty for all. Granted the idea is force fed to them from a tender age. But very little could be further from the truth.
We are descended from a bunch of puritans who were so devoted to their sick and oppressive religion that they made a perilous, miserable, life threatening, months longs journey across the unforgiving ocean just to be able to worship their psychotic brand of Godliness. These were some devoted mutherfuckers and they were devoted to some fucked up shit.
In fact they were so crazy, that all the other crazy christians of 16th century Europe (who were pretty whacked in their own right) thought those puritan bitches was totally high.
And that’s what America is all about. Being free to practice fucked and psychotic religions without the other less fucked other psychotic religions being able to stop you.